Its been so long already. Only they have the rights to say things about others.. Others don't. Only they have the rights to do things to others, when they themselves don't even like it. It's getting harder to stay with them, its getting harder yet easier to keep my mouth and heart shut regarding this. Sometimes, hate and running away seems to be the easier way out. 

But I know I cant. 

Starting to forget who I was as well, not in Christ but me as a person. 

frustration, irritation. 

Aside the rubbish crappy stuff, I know i have awesome friends around - Gabby, Blythe, Candice, Benben, YL, CWM, YW, JX, Janet, Vivi. Few of the most awesome people around! :D 

Been hanging out alot alot last week with est, yl, yw, cwm and blythe. Laughter, fun and love never fail to fill the atmosphere whenever they are around. Nothing is fake there, only genuine care and love. A place I feel loved so much more than anywhere else in church. 

Last hangouts at night, watching late movies, eating rocher tau huay, hanging out at Lasalle with truth or dare, and changing the game to "The truth game" because we got scolded by the security there, and slowly everyone just was too lazy to move. Even though all these are simple simple outings, but, the element of joy and fun is there. This is what i call.. F E L L O W S H I P. No single topic for different genders, no need to change topics just to feel included because everyone alr is included. 

On Saturday after service, after est's session with Pst, we all went to Douby Ghaut to meet the brothers and had an awesome chilling session at Old School Timbre, even though we had to climb up super high flights of stairs, but it was still fun(: But then, I feel that the mood was somehow spoilt cause of me))): was too down, everything jus burst out and cried. *sigh, crybaby again))):*

Last week, the same few of us (Blythe, YX, YL, CWM, YW, Yu Xian, Justin, Candice, and of coz esther!)  decided on going for kite-flying after watching Deck5's jamming session on Sunday (ytd). Deck 5 was awesome, we ended the session with all singing praise songs and clapping as though we were in service! duper fun! :DDD 

We then went over to LJS, and finally decided to watch movie - The Shock. As time went by, Candice, JX went off. And we were waiting for Gabby and Janet to come. 

Wootts~ Finally got to meet up with Gabby again. Really thank God for this brother, for calling me in the middle of the night when he was already so tired, and even praying for me. Awesome friend he is. really.  Used to thought everything if forgotten and changed, but (: 

Anyways, we then walked to The Cathay and waited for Gabby. Movie was retarded, though funny at some areas. And i realised my fear for horror shows are decreasing though i was still scared like crazy. Thank God for an arm to grab! harass! After that, some went to buy tau huay and i acc gab to get his chicken rice. Walked to Lasalle after that. Same thing happened, we ended up playing Truth or dare, which ultimately became "the truth game". Hahaas! Fellowship, "bao to" one another until about 3am. And home! 

Life will never be so fun without knowing God, and knowing all these awesome people! Shall post photos the next update, if there is.

Thank you Gab, Blythe, Esther , yilong, Weiming, yiwei and Janet for being such awesome friends (: <3

iDestinee.