6 days since I've blogged.. (: Well, work has been stressed as usual. For some reasons, it only happens when i am at work in the ward. After that, i am able to remember certain things about the patients whom i was taking care of for the shift. Stupid mind i have, duper weird.

Well, work life is really .. *finding an appropriate word for it....* draining. Somehow, just wondering why am I so inefficient at work, totally different from what I expect of myself. Why am i so blurrr? 

There are so many things that are not done on my side when many of my friends have most likely completed everything.. There shouldnt be any chance to have any excuses anymore. time is running out, I cant stay where I am. Yet, i always feel defeated, incompetent when I am working with certain group of people. Go blank when i am supposed to be focused, work slow when i am supposed to be fast and prioritising my work ! Cant stand myself for being so retarded at work. So many things not done, so many areas to improve. Can they be done up in a week? Seriously, i don know.. ):

Got bombarded by people regarding different things, not scoldings but talks. seriously, i think i am too stressed up. Exploded, broke down and cried for like 2 hrs? I cant remember when was the time I cried this long. I felt like i was shattered into pieces and broken, don know what should do at all.

but thank God for people around me. Thank God for Esther, Wilson, Kenny, Gabriellim, Blythetan, Samuelsoh, Crystallim, and most importantly, my colleague Ain! Thanks Gabrieltan and Hongyun for calling me! Thanks for being around and tolerating my complains (if i did).. (:

Am feeling alot better, though there are still some heaviness in me. )): 

But i will buck up, since its my dream since 13yrs back! 

Jiayou! :D

iDestinee