On & Off...

Woots~ i am finally back to my online diary to post my grumbles.. =x

CNY has been really really boring, until after dinner ( first day ). one of my dad's friend jio-ed us to go to another friend's place for a gathering. after loads of events, we finally got out of the house and reached that place. listened to the folks stories while eyes were stuck onto the television in front of us... didnt really have a pleasant moment there due to some annoying comments that really pissed me off. Thank God i managed to make it a silent piss.. LOLs.

Second day was to another friend's house, childhood friend. Not too bad, managed to catch up quite abit.. (:

Tuesday was quite a fun day as well. went to Gloria's place with a few other members and spent some time there. cozy and nice. and that's when i finally got tempted to play majong and learnt it! Thanks to my ShiFus, Xavier and Gloria's mum~ Thank you people! hahas.. the more i play, the more i am used to the game, though many times, i still don really have any idea of what i was doing.. lols. nonetheless, it was not too bad! after that, we went all the way to tampines to bainian also.. First to Raymond's place and then to Renfred's place.

Was home quite late that day, super tired and i was on morning shift the next morning. Thank God things aint too shiong during work. Met up with Kay Hwa for dinner together with Renfred. Its been really looooooongggggggg since i last met him! hahas.. anyway, dinner was awesome. hope for more meet ups with him! :D

Looked super cui! Tired.

As new year ends, my posting at SGH is ending soon as well.. i am not too sure if its getting better, but its definitely different from my previous postings and still not as good as my previous posting. still felt like an idiot over there, as though i am really incompetent to be one. its really very depressing. asked me why i felt like giving up? Hahas.. maybe cause its a easier escape, to run away and avoid it. i know its stupid cause i've only left 1 week and i am done. but i am kinda sick of the paper work to be done. really deviates from what i thought it was. ):

Yet, its still something i want to do, touching lives and be someone who can give them the support needed. somehow, i still feel that something is lacking over here. cant figure what that is. wish me best in my last week, hopefully nothing depressing already.. cause i already felt defeated and tired..

hmmm, i've started to learn certain things, thinking that it will continue and get sweeter and sweeter. yet it didnt, maybe it not for now, but something later on. yet many times, i asked myself if all these things worth anything. is the factor of my changes worth the effort i am working on now. Many times, i'll just think back and have the urge to go back to the starting point. tears flow.

Anyways, jiayou for everything!

few more days and freedom for 1.5mths!

its not very long, but i guess..

i just need a breather and be re-charged once again..

iDestinee.