Dreams dont come easy..

Being a nurse has been my dream for the past 13 years.. why did i want to become a nurse then, since such a young age somemore?

well, its due to some personal issues that has inspired me to become one. but at that time, i thought i was just a initial interest.. something like puppy love among young adults..

but as time went by, the interest became deeper.. the factors are kinda simple, maybe abit lame.. but.. its true the care of the nurses i saw years ago, and the dramas about nurses that got me interested in nursing.. from then on, i thought nursing was, is and will be my greatest ambition that i wana fulfill in my life.. i thought of being a O&G nurse so that i can take care of babies..(:

that was in primary school days..

In secondary school days..i kept my dream.. and hoping i will be able to become a nurse. and i found a friend who was also inspired to become a nurse.. we became awesome best friends.. the best best friend i ever had.. and along the way.. there were thoughts like.. we must get into triple science course for our sec 3 class, if not we wont get to study biology, and maybe will not be able to get into nursing as we thought biology was needed to get into nursing. and when i didnt, i thought i was going to miss the dream.. until someone told us that as long as we have physics and chem, there is a chance..

but then, when i was in sec 3, i didnt really do well for my results. from the first half of the class, i dropped till the last few of the cohort. many teachers were worried about me, and many knew i want to be a nurse. And one of the teachers was so disappointed in me, that she made a super nasty comment in front of the whole class, " Jiamin, if you still do not buck up on your studies, i think nursing also don want you". my heart broke and i was totally demoralised.. again, i thought i was going to lose my dream again.

my teachers then started to talk to me.. even my principal, Ms Chamb, came to talk to me.. not because i was useless, but it was because they loved me so much that they actually offered to help me with my studies.. Principal, HODs ( chem, A& E maths & PE), physics teacher.. they all offered their time to stay with me just to guide me.. i almost gave up Amaths so that i could concentrate on others, but i hanged on.. my classmates helped me loads.. and i passed everything.. even my worst subject - Amaths which i got F9 from the day i took it..

and i successfully got into my dream course, Nursing @ NYP.. trust me, even in between those tough times, i dreamt that i was already working as a nurse..

During poly days..

i studied, but not that well in my academic..but attachments were my happiest days in the term of my course. i love the interactions with my patients.many of my staffs. many were so helpful, though there were nasty ones la.. but i love what i was doing.. and slowly, i got a clearer picture of what i wana focus on.. wana study neuroscience, wana do mission works..

all the way till now, already 5 days before i am going to end my identity as a student nurse in the working environment, my passion for nursing never cease.. its still there, especially when i get to see my patients, those that i may be more biased towards and those that are still under my care.. hahas!

yet, i am getting weary just because of people around me.. please, someone please whack me real hard. its just 5 more days.. and i still think of giving up.. arghh. what's wrong with me?! i need strength again.. even abit also can, to just last me for that 5 days.. to do my best and be in my best performance and end off my 3 years well... i don wana repeat PRCP.. i wana pass it well, on my first attempt..

there were so many times i wanted to give up.. just because people made me feel that i am not capable.. people making me feel as though i am incompetent.. thus, i want to remind myself again why i wanted to be a nurse, and how hard i worked for it despite so many weird paths.. for 13 long years...

many things are in my mind..

issues abt family, personal, work..

all clouding and piling up in my mind..

but still..

i will never say things like giving up ever again!

Jiayou Karmen!

iDestinee.