Am i losing my smile? Yea, its getting abit harder to smile now...

Many times, i feel so inferior..

so blank that i don know what i am doing..

These days, i feel as though i wana just run away, giving up my 12-yr dream..

despite the fact that i am only less than a month to fulfill my dream..

have been doing things and missing out things...

this is something that has never happened to me at all. Never.

and i have no idea why that is happening, and what's wrong with me.

it is so bad that i am getting really frustrated at myself.

really angry at myself every single time something happen.

they should not happen.

and really, i am starting to doubt myself.

everytime when i think of that, i really feel like crying lo..

which i did.

these few days when i was on my way home, tears start swelling up whenever i think about myself.

totally different from what i used to visualise myself to me.

Competent, clear-minded.

Totally different.

Am trying to find a way to buck myself up, but its kinda difficult.

The other thing is..

i have to choose my ward already. Having some argument within my mind.

Obviously my mind and heart are not in sync.

Awesome.

I need some strength.. feeling really tired already.

seriously, i am really tired...

iDestinee.