I need more strength to go on..

I still don understand..

Why cant i function the way i always do?

Why do i feel so defeated and down whenever i step into the place and looking at the people there?

Why do i have no confidence even though the things i know are right?

Why cant i feel myself when i am there?

Its so hard.struggling like crap.

Learning opportunities.Chances to certain activities.

Meeting the expectations (objectives) i had before starting work.

feel abit stuck bahs.

everytime i think about it, tears will just swell up.

not something easy.

yet when you're ok with something, you cant grow and learn anything.

Drained.Tired.

Am I losing it? arghh..

Yet there are times i really like to be there.

the only reason are those who are supporting me.encouraging me.lifting me.

without it, hmm...

I wana be better..can i?

am doubting myself again..

iDestinee.