Elloooooo...........!!!

LOLs.. don really know what else to put for the caption, so decided to greet with a big "ELLO".. ok, i know that's lame, but well, i am a crazy girl!! :D:D

Anyways, had been a lobster for the past 2 days.. used to think that its really nice to be under the Sun at times and be hyper, though i don really get myself exposed to the Sun.. and the pain was killing me quite abit.. cant lift up my arms, cant bathe or change my clothes properly... my face feels like rice paper and its just so uncomfortable.. but then, somehow the pain today seemed to be subsided.. like, its so much better. Just that, when i move my sleeve to check out those overcooked areas and moving my arms, its really very painful!!! )):

Suddenly, it reminded me on one of the Nursing modules on burns.. Stage 1 burns includes sunburn and the clinical features of it! my goodness.. i was like.. "Karmen, seriously?!" hahas.. Now understand why i am health science course, studying nursing course.. hahas.. too obsessed i think... XD

But well, my point is.. i suddenly started thinking.. getting sunburns is already such a torture for me, what happens to those who got stage 2-4 burns whereby it includes the disfiguring of appearance..?? The pain they had to bear physically and psychologically.. Though my interest is in neurology and oncology and i may not have a chance to take care of patients with burns, i would really hope that i can do something for those people too.. If i ever have a chance to take care of them, even if its only a day. hahas.. if ever.. i have the chance, i will cherish it..(:

Suddenly felt a little bit of negativity coming back to me thanks to someone.. its a little depressing bahs..cause i though it would be different, won't be affected by it. But i guess, its normal for people to get negative once in awhile even if they are those super positive type of people yea? maybe with that mindset, i won't get too disappointed at myself. Also have this feeling of getting disconnected from people around me.. the things they do, the difference in treatment before and behind the others.. there are times when... feeling alone even though i have people around me.. feel that their presence aint truly genuine bahs.. unreal and fake.. un-trustable.

HAhas..but as i was typing this entry, especially the part that is a little negative, as my brain begins to process and those thoughts began to change bahs.. Like, how i felt last weekend, nothing seems to be bigger than God. that.. all these things are just the weakness of human beings because they will always fail. Even ourselves, we fail because we are human beings.. hahas.. my way of getting positivity os to blog!! to speak my mind out, rather than keeping inside of me and caring about how people see me when i say things out..

Yet sometimes, i feel that i am not worthy to feel positive again, especially when i see people around me, those that i love and care for, are suffering and getting stuck at the point i was, maybe not exactly though. I just feel really uneasy because, most of the time, i really don know what to say to help them, though i know they need something bahs.. maybe cause i feel i am disconnecting from people, or maybe i just simply cant talk..

If i ever have the chance... i will cherish it..

and do my best to make it the best! :D

iDestinee.