Argh.. Contradictions..

doers and sayer.. which one are we?

sometimes just feel that the things we say, and the things we do are different. sometimes, the way we do things towards people are also different. maybe the things we say to different people are the same too. Are all these contradictions?

at different point of times, we might have different thinking in our minds. maybe that's why we say different things to different people, do different things towards different people. we might have decided on certain things, but the next moment, we decided to change that decision made and go forward to the "current" decision that we have (had) at that point of time. Is that double-mindedness?

i guess many of us are the same, we have different thinking at different intervals. we want this, but after a while, we want another thing. We tell this person something, but at the next moment, we may say another thing to another person.maybe cause we decided that we were thinking about different things and thus different decisions at different timing when talking to different people at different time? is that contradictions or double-mindedness?

for me, there seems to be something in my heart that seem to be like this. seems hard to let go, there seems to be such contradiction in my heart. its kinda confusing at times, it's a little hard at times. want to let go, but i cant seem to do it. though there are times when i was quite firm about it. i hope to go ahead with it, but i am not sure if i should. is it right? will i be affected again?

but i am going ahead with it..

my choice, but going easy on it.

the higher the expectation, the worse the disappointment.

iDestinee.