Hmmm.. weird feelings to all..

Today was quite a good day.. was almost late for class. But! I was just on time! PRaise the Lord! :D And.. I PASSED MY TEST!! So happy la.. XD

Anyways.. had group discussion today also.. hang out at ePlaza for awhile, waiting for yonggao also.. hahas.. invited him and kenny over for dinner.. XD

Waited for yg until his discussion was over.. which was quite late.. Dinner was fun cause daddy got off day today!! And he cooked! Whee~ Miss his cooking to the max man!! hahas.. today was a short but fun day.. :D

Anyways, these days' been quite a weird week for me. Things happened along the way. And now, cause of me, everything seems to feel a little different. I know it is just me, but again, I feel so uneasy and weird.. just not right,

This is something i definitely need to change.. stupid character of mine. screwing things up like a small immature kid. But seriously, i don know how.. sighs.

Somehow.. negativity things came back to me again these days..

Ever since I am back to school, or rather since last semester, when different issues started coming up.. I realised some changes in the people around me, including myself.

I felt as though i am slacking even more, becoming someone whom i don like. its like. so frustrating. How should i change it? How should i be how i was when it comes to handing up my slides to my members on time?

I feel that i am drawing away from people and vise visa. It is like. so uncomfortable. Am I doing well now? Actually, i don think so.

I thought i was.

Everything seems to be changing.. Relationships with people especially. The way i do things, its just so not me right now. Seriously, i don like that at all, and its really disturbing. And i really wonder how much i mean to them when the actions that they have dont tally with their words. Being kind in words and harsh in actions hurts. No matter how much you assure them.

All that just adds up.. and its making me feel bad about myself one again.. Laughing and being cheerful now.. it is just a superficial thing. I really long to do that genuinely.. Its been really long since i am really happy from within.

Sometimes, I feel that i am forgetting how to be happy..

iDestinee.