Finally free from attachment..

remembered the first day of attachment, i said i was looking forward to the end of the attachment. But then, when my attachment has ended, i actually hope that i can stay in the ward.. I already miss some of my patients.. i want to talk to them more.. relieve them from the boredom and pain... This is what i was thinking.. Every single attachment that i went through, i always love and hate the last day of attachment..

Love: i can start slacking and enjoy myself during the holidays.. have a super good rest and long, late sleep.. Don have to miss any chance of going out with my friends and loved ones..(:

Hate: I am addicted and used to working in the ward by the 2nd week.. especially when i am already used to working with a bunch of nice people.. people who teach me new things.. doing skills that are learnt but not practiced yet.. talking to patients that will allow me to learn alot of things.. and make me wana tear whenever i chat with them.. somehow.. i will miss them..

i was really kind of... unwilling to leave the ward on the last day of work.. it is always like this one.. from the first attachment till now.. NUH to SGH... every single one..(:

Anyways, shall just update abit of things that happened since yesterday. Nothing much i guess.. but somehow this posting.. whether working morning shift or afternoon shift, time will pass super fast.. maybe its because of the work that needs to be done.. it SOOOOOOOOO MUUUCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHH!! Interesting things and things that i am tired of doing.. but anyways, all of these are done already.. can finally take a break..

Thursday

Went for prayer meeting in the morning.. coincidently, my dad was also going to pioneer! so went to take bus and train with him.. Though we were slightly late for PM.. but i thought it was really good to have some time with him.. its been long long and long since i really spent time with my dad.. that was cool..anyways, took 179 to church from pioneer station..on the way, saw Willie on the same bus as us.. so we went for PM together.. sat together at alpha terrence.. but probably because we were slightly late, i could not really pray properly.. Due to my tiredness, i even fell asleep i think.... and God made fun of me also.. so funny. when we were almost ending the personal prayer time, i felt someone hit my head and my head hit the chair in front and i woke up.. Instead of being angry, i felt funny.. like.so funny!

It is God i thought.. He was asking me to put away my tiredness and seek after Him though the flesh is weak and wanting to rest.. and after that, i felt faith and power coming in.. though i was still really really tired..

After prayer meeting, willie and i decided to go and eat.. went to crystal's place there and eat (My dad was working there too!!).. so we walked from church to crystal's place.. talked alot of crap and waking her up by morning call her many many times.. finally appeared after awhile with some very naughty jokes. ate some food, kajiao my dad.. He made chee cheong fan personally for me!!! I LOVE MY DADDY!!! Left about 10 as i needed to prepare myself for work.

Work time was quite okay la.. not much except for routine work.. didnt do changes as it was abit messy..and busy i guess.. Oh.. something that really excites me.. i managed to complete a skill that was taught long long time ago...As in. i did before, its just that i didnt manage to do it successfully.. but this time round, Ms Ho Yim Fong, school lecturer, came.. She taught me new things while assessing me skills.. was a fruitful day to me la.. yea man..(:

Friday

went for PM today in the morning.. was alot better man.. i could pray properly already..at least presence of God will there.. and i didnt feel like sleeping.. mUahahaas..!! Thought PM was so short la.. lols.. cant imagine the difference between ytd and today sia..

Anyways, since only kenny, esther and i went for pm, we decided to go crystal's house there again... ate things, talked and talked about nonsense la.. what else other than crap man! Its horror stories.. Came home.. prepare to go out again.

Fell asleep straight away on the bus lo.. super tired... but was super high during work la.. Suddenly i really felt like a staff there and crapped like siao lor. Even with the staff there.. ahahs..was super busy today.. almost didnt feel like going home.. cause i know i am going to miss them so much.. feel like going back to see them again lei.. will miss them so much.. last time also say wana go back to see patients, but after that, busy ar. this time round, got more urge to go back and see them.. things very very funny happened.. super duper funny..but will not reveal here.. hahas.. but it was super funny..laughed for half an hour i think.. and i made new friends with some of them who just came in.. but its my last day..felt kinda sad though.. cause cant really talk to them anymore.. so yea..

Anyways, i really love this posting, alot alot.. hahas.. But something that i feel.. the pm felt different already.. i don feel the closeness like we had during the first daily prayer meeting, when all could spend time together and hanging out together.. its different.. friendships with some had changed too.. hahas.. things change.. nothing remains.. except for the love of God.. really.. that's my conclusion...hahas..\

Anyways, i am super tired.. got to sleep now...see ya!

iDestinee.