Is it just watching your own anime, and shouting irritating when the other party just want someone to chat with? Or is just thinking what you want all the time and not wondering why someone is acting such manner?

Many times, this is what i think.. maybe that's why because i don seen to be able to find anyone to chat with.. really feel so lonely. all i want is to have someone to chat with or joke with.. Somehow i am lonely..

But i guess, i just need to get used to it.. afterall, i am not a good sister or friend to start with..

Going through deep valleys aint easy..even with the help of some leaders..

Cause i still feel alone.. maybe i am not worthy afterall yea?

This is what i consistently think throughout.. What am i to people actually?

And yes, i think.. i am going back to my shell..since i am still alone..

There isnt anyone [i am referring to human beings] who can fill my emptiness in my heart, though i really yearn for a friend, a sister who will really be there when i need someone..

To shoulder me when i just need to cry.. or to hug me when i feel lonely...

I might be happy or seems ok on the outside.. But who will really know me?

I will only depend on God.. cause i know all man fails..

Maybe i should just accept that.

iDestinee.