In life, we always have many up times and downtimes..
we need to learn how to walk out of our downtimes..
everyone has different ways of walking out of our darkest valleys in life..
but seriously, the main thing for this is not whether we can do it or not.
its simply just...whether we want to do it anot.

This will be difficult at the starting point of our decision,
especially when we decide that we want to do it..
more difficult things will come along and weigh us down..
but what can we do?
we cant avoid.. we can only face it..
if we choose to run away from it, our agony will definitely increase.

that was what happened to me..
when i was jus transferred to N395 from W369,
i hated it.. seriously..
i didnt wan to accept the fact that i am already in that cell group.
i didnt wan to tell them anything..
keeping all secrets to myself and stuff..
for the past 8 months, i was not happy at all..
when i finally choose to decide that i wan to integrate myself into the cell group,
i did ways to do it..

There are loads of things and situations in our lives..
but what determines what we want to do?
its our heart and soul..
we decide what are the things we want, like freedom and peace..
find ways to do it..
choose someone you can trust to talk to.
at least i had God to talk to, or even Roger.
the very few that i can really trust in my life..

Dont choose to make your life like a hell for you..
find ways to bring it back to how you wan it to be..
especially, be open to those u love and trust..
i am very sure they will be so willing to spend time to talk..
as Pastor had said..
there is a demand of some areas of u when you wana do something..
A demand of your time, your heart..
whether you are willing to give your time and heart to share your unhappiness to those who will definitely give their time and heart to you...
even though they might be busy with their things,
i am very sure there will be at least one person on earth that will be like that, Besides God..

therefore, for those who are unhappy,
choose to be happy again..
find ways to be happy again..
the path will be hard and rocky,
but you will always thank this path of difficult down times..
cause it will be a time for you to know who are your true friends and know that you have go up to another level of maturity in your life.
Jiayou for those who are trying, including me..^^
God Bless all my friends.. (:


Carmen-