hmmm.. today i m gonna blog about friendship again..

some peeps might have already know that i have lilked a boy for a year plus..
so i shall eleborate some stuff with him.. and how he actually changed me..
and my negativeness.. it was him who got rid away from my life..
it might still be there.. but it's reduced by alot alot le..
and he made me as the current me..
though i was quite awhile ago le..

Anyways, he is a guy that i knew on friendster a couple of years back.. (roger know the date..hehe)
from then on.. we seems to have to chat almost everyday..
like for long hours online kinda thing.. (jiahui was always complaining abt tt de..)
we felt so close tt we even talked about our own family backgrounds to each other
despite knowing each other for less than 24 hours..
his background was quite sad.. slightly worse than mine.. but ya..
he was very optimistic..
he even encouraged me through my down times..
or helped me to get out of my negative thoughts..
and also shared my up times together with me..

then, he would use funny quotes to explain and to cheer me up at the same time.
J would represent him, C would obviously represent myself.

J: '' Even fishes in the dirty canals are useful.. they helped to clear all the waste and dirty stuff in the water of the big big dirty canal u know..
so you should not despise yourself."
C:" Maybe i am like the dirty fish bahs.. no one will wan or cherish de.."
J: " No No! you are not a fish, you are human being!"

hahas..
right in that instance, i jus burst out laughing..

He also told me this.. you have friends who cares, who will tell u frankly where is your flaws.
if one says that, u can ignore,
but if there is a whole bunch of people complaining about you, probably u have to think and reflect le..
and if you simply ignore those hints and advices that they give you..
one day, they might get tired..
and they will even give up the friendship and go away..

And true enough..
few months later, he told me he was very sad tt i was always being negative..
he was a optimistic person..
and he couldnt do anything but to leave the friendship..
to break the friendship that lasted only for 3mths or less..

at that time, 2 of us liked each other..
but because of my stubbornness, the friendship was gone.. totally gone..
from then on, i was afraid that such things will happen again..
so i will try my very best to stay positive..
because that was the kind of gratitude that he wants from me if i wana really thank him..

So people who are reading this,
i really hope that if there is anyone who tries to say anything,
or more than one who say something about you,
really think about it.. think through..
cause if you dont, you will lose those precious friends and regret..
cause these friends are those who are not afraid to tell you the truth..
only true friends will say out the cruel truth, because they do care..
they really do..

Destiny-